“The feelings of early autumn are coming back, and with it, much nostalgia. I wonder though, how much of this nostalgia is birthed from fraudulent feelings I created for myself in some past season, the truth of which I have forgotten? As the years of nostalgia build upon one another the charade thickens, building feelings that never truly existed. But then I wonder, have they not been real?”

Taylor M. Wilson

I wonder then, the conditions a feeling must meet to be real. Or, how long one must force an imagined feeling onto oneself for it to become a part of them? Is future feeling created from the mistaken remembrance of a previous experience? Is it possible to create a feeling from nothing to begin with? Or, is experiencing a feeling the result of finding a feeling that has existed within an experience or former memory but was hidden until that moment has aged in your memory?

If a feeling was not present in the initial moment of experience, is it unable to be connected to the future memory of said experience?

If it is that case that it can, then how can it be said that any experience is any feeling? If the feeling of an experience is not consistent throughout time, then is the true feeling the one felt in the initial moment of experience, or that of the memory?

I am unsure. But I think it may be that in each moment of reminisce the remembered experience becomes an entirely unique one. Meaning that the experience remembered is not the same as the experience that was had in the initial moment. With this, each feeling that is felt throughout the lifetime of a memory, is the one and only true feeling for an experience, as in each moment, a new experience is being made.

This is not what I wanted to discuss in reference the quote at the beginning but such is the workings of thought. It should be known that in our attempt to direct the machines of thought, the true state of things is infected with our own biased, and false display of true knowledge. The more you remove your own influence over the direction of your thought, the closer it draws to the truth that we exist within.

Anyways, do what you want with feeling, there is none that is more real then any other.

I hope your final self regards each moment with a feeling of serenity, as to make your life as such.

In support of future feelings,

Taylor M. Wilson